“That Goes Against My Philosophy”: Examining the Emotional Labor and Identity Negotiation of ESL Pre-service Teacher


The graduate school experience can be quite intense, specifically for international students who currently teach English to multilingual students. Despite their dynamic and fluid identity, they also undergo a range of emotions as they strive to assimilate into a specific community of practice and to be professionally accepted. The purpose of this narrative analysis is to examine the emotional labor and identity of an international student working as a pre-service ESL teacher in an English program in one of the U.S research-integrated Universities. Theories on language teacher identity propose that LTI is a complex and multifaceted concept encompasses the beliefs, value, attitude, and experiences that shape the sense of self in addition to the role as language educator. In addition, this study adapted poststructuralist approach that the identity is constructed through a combination of individual agency and social influences, consisting of various roles and subject positions. The participant provided her experiences and thoughts during two times of open-ended interviews and her class observation to better understand her complex identity and the factors that had successfully contributed to its construction. The findings indicate a contrasting relationship between the institution's policies and practices and the participant's teaching philosophy, which, in turn, impacted the participant's emotions and identity negotiation. Moreover, the study also contributes to the significant discovery regarding the impact of intersectionality, specifically race and non-native speakerism, as crucial factors contributing to the participant's emotional labor and identity.

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Biaz Dea Nabilla, Arizona State University, United States

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Conference: ECAH2023
Stream: Ethnicity

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Nabilla B. (2023) “That Goes Against My Philosophy”: Examining the Emotional Labor and Identity Negotiation of ESL Pre-service Teacher ISSN: 2188-1111 – The European Conference on Arts & Humanities 2023: Official Conference Proceedings https://doi.org/10.22492/issn.2188-1111.2023.5
To link to this article: https://doi.org/10.22492/issn.2188-1111.2023.5

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